I was a good girl today

OHHH, first off my earlier post was for yesterday, but I forgot to post. This is truly today's post!! Not that it really matters, no one seems to be reading about my boring life anyway.

So this morning I did the paper route, so that means I am walking on and off for two hours, so that counts right?? Even though I did totally try to rationalize it in my head today I still worked out on the treadmill for 40 mins. I did a harder program that is on my treadmill and I was breathing pretty heavy and thought at one point I could just faint!! I didn't though :)
I did two miles and burned about 300 calories!! I am sure by nights end I will eat 300 calories though, dang it and my love for sweets!!

No progress today...

I had class today and study group in the morning. I got up, got the kiddos ready, and off I went. I did park farther away today, but not enough to count for much of a work-out though. I also didn't have my usual chocolate cookies during our breaks, instead I had a bag of peanuts that had fruit in it. It was yummy and at least 150 less calories than those yummy cookies. So I guess in that regard I saved 300 calories today!! Baby steps, baby steps, that is the way....
I didn't do any treadmill today, as I was just a poop when I came home. I went to bed early, because I had to be up at three to do the paper route.

I hate scales

I got weighed today and let's just say I am at least 20 pounds over weight. That may not seem like much to some, but to me it might as well be 100 lbs!! So I came home today and walked/jogged for an hour on my treadmill. I logged 3 miles and burned like 400 calories. Not that I didn't end up eating that 400 calories again with dinner, but heck it is something...right?? I even walked up the stairs today instead of taking the elevator up three flights to the dentist office. I know it will take a lot more than an hour on the treadmill to lose the weight now that I am in my 30's, but I have to start somewhere. I wouldn't mind some feedback girls?? Are you out there??

Clinicals count don't they?

Today I had clinicals, so I walked up and down the halls chasing after things the nurse needed...does that count as exercise? I sure hope so, because I am pooped and I am not getting on that treadmill. Not to mention my right ankle is killing me...an old injury that flared up this week. I hobbled around on it today and it is killing me. I am going to get it checked out tomorrow. Those are my excuses for today...

"Smack my b*tch up!!

Okay, so first let me say how I did yesterday. I sucked! I ended up bringing my little man to the ER, it took three hours and by the time I got home and got the kids fed and off to bed I had to get things ready for school. So I didn't do anything to work out...I sucked out!
BUT......
I did however work out tonight. First let me tell you my motivation. I had class today and got to discussing my new blog with a friend from class. So as we were driving back from lunch I joked about how I should park far away from the school for exercise. She was like, yes you should, do it....but, of course, I had an excuse," I would but I have to jet out of here after school to get my kids." Now as soon as the words came out I realized I was full of crap. We were due out by 5 and my kids don't need to be picked up until 6 pm. I could have parked out there, but my lazy butt didn't want to!! Note to self...learn to park like a half-mile away. So to make a long story longer, I decided when I got home tonight right after dinner that instead of chatting on messenger with my big Sister that I would go right up to my room, throw on some shorts, a t-shirt, and get my flabby butt on the treadmill. That is exactly what I did. I jumped on, threw in a program that came with the treadmill, and worked out for 50 mins. I even increased the speed and incline more than the program asked for!! Go me!! I jogged off and on at 5mph...I know that isn't much, but for not working out for months and months it isn't bad. So tonight, for a change I was a good girl and I did what I wanted to. We will see what tomorrow brings.

P.S. School sucked today and I am thankful that Val was there to listen to me be cynical as usual!! I think I should go on for my Masters as soon as I can and become a teacher. Not because I want to teach, but because they obviously are lacking good knowledgeable nursing instructors!!!!!

So it is 2008 and it's time to make some changes...bet you never heard that before!! Seriously I have decided that I need to make an effort to get healthier. I usually do this a few times a year, mentally, but never follow through with it. SO, I thought maybe I could blog about my progress and all my dear friends who love to be "frank" will help me along.
This is my plan. I am going to try to blog everyday about what, if any, progress I have had. For example:

Today I wanted to get up and get on my treadmill for a half hour before my kids got up...instead I slept late (mentally rationalizing it was all Aiden's fault, because he woke me up three times during the night) and got up took a shower before the kids woke up and then the day has began. For those of you that have kids you know that once they are up any plans you have are pretty much out the window!! So now my goal is to still get on the treadmill or go do some yard work to work up a sweat. Check back to see if I followed through...but don't hold your breath, it is Sunday you know ;)

Now what I would appreciate it some feedback from you guys. "Kick my ass" so to speak. Don't let me be a slacker. Point out all my stupid excuses and just let me have it, I can take it I am strong. I just need a good kick in the pants to get motivated.

My dear sweet husband, before he left, bought me this amazing treadmill. I girl couldn't ask for a better one, unless it worked out for you!! So not only do I want to get in shape, but I would like to thank my husband for getting me my treadmill by actually using it. I don't have a goal weight in mind, just a goal to get my lazy bum moving each day. Summer will be here before I know it and I would like to get back into jogging again. I am not a health nut as you all know, but I do remember when I was able to jog I felt dang good!!! I think I have rambled on enough about this silliness, so I challenge all of my friends to read my blogs and help me along!! If anyone wants to join in, I will certainly enjoy "kicking" your butt into gear too!! Thanks girls and here's to getting healthier in 2008.
~Kelly

To her own reflection she said, " I will be strong!"

Yesterday was a rough day for me. It was one of those I can't take one more thing on my shoulders or I will explode!! Clinicals, homework, tests, reading, kids, traffic, classmate dynamics, and dinner...I had just had my fill for one day. I came home and I had a splitting headache and was in a terrible mood. I soon realized that since my husband is gone this week that there was no one there to give me a break to take some time for myself to regroup. The baby was cranky, the older two were doing the usual avoidance of chores and homework. I didn't get home until after five from clinicals and dinner had to be made in the midst of helping with homework, calming the baby, and then the phone rings too. My poor sister got the brunt of it. I just ranted to her for about a half hour. I just needed to get some of it off my chest. Not that it really helped in the end. The day was just a terrible one.....

So the reason for this blog is because today I came to the realization that I am a very strong woman. I know this, I have known this. Yesterday just made me think. If someone like me can get that overwhelmed with things, what does someone that is not strong do?
It made me think of all the military wives, the single Moms, and the list goes on and on. How do they cope when life gets to be too much for them? I know we all have a degree of strength in us, but for some of us it is harder to find the strength to go on. I just sat here today after finishing another pharm. quiz and felt so thankful that I am strong. Yes, as yesterday showed me, I am able to get back up after being knocked down, but I just wonder how many hits can you take before you too are not strong enough to get back up??
This year is going to be a rough one and I just pray that I have the strength to fight through it!!
Thanks for listening...well reading my venting for the day :)